issues

my dearest dolls, i want to let you know why i was, and will be away for a while.
you know, life is challenging me in fucking hard ways right now.
i have to deal with my issues first now.
i will think of you and the the good times we had together and i will do my best to get back to normal as soon as possible.i promise.
dont forget i love you.
take care about yourself and your beloved ones.
xxo
yours
eszter

one of those days

dolls, i woke up today and noticed that my left leg quited its job.

reality check 1,2.

so no sashaying the next days.

on sundays we usually dont know what to do with ourselfes.

the cat is badly off then.

see, i cant even count on how many levels this face screams fuck off:

hope you are all well and heads are not spinning too much

<3

eszter

i wear: jacket: topshop, cardi: etsy, scarf: zara, dress: american apparel, tights: h&m, thigh high socks: american apparel, shoes: no name, sunnies: american apparel, bracelet/rings: ebay.co.uk

u-turns turn on me

when I saw the sign it was the first day
heading south to the north
once god turned his back on me
now there is no return for me
u-turns constantly

i wear: leo cardi: vintage/ebay.com, shirt: h&m+diy painted, shorts: vintage levis, belt: h&m, tights: asos.com, rings: ebay,+brook&lyn, lipstick: manic panic (raven)

i live between concrete walls

you are real

you are unreal

and sometimes ceilings peel

...yeah, i know...

what the fuck is she talking about again?

...ask me tomorrow x)

something else

kiddos, some of you asked how i edit the pics, drop me a mail if you have a special question, ok?

i wear: trench: zara, shirtdress: cant remember, tights: topshop, boots: topshop, lipstick: manic panic (i mixed raven+black rose)

blind your mind

my own mind is mine to drive in lanes that aren't allowed that's why i'm only allowed in circles around.

so long kiddos
mommy lays her head down now...at 22h....grannystyle

love to you from me

i am wearing: jacket+belt: h&m, shirt: h&m+diy painted, leggings: asos, booties: ebay.co.uk, bracelet: f21 necklace, rings: ebay+present+brook&lyn, lipstick:manic panic (should be dark purple but my lips had other plans x))

thanks to: style sample mag, fashionsnoops and fashionjinx for their interest! <3

the awakening

i live inside

all invited inside

eyes flutter feathers

my hairs fair like weather

i've blown my recovery

life is real when you're dreaming

life's a dream when you're reeling

but now that I know just what you're all about

i really just want out

dont forget, i love u

now go and have a rad weekend!

yrs

eszter

ps thanks for your sweet comments, i will get back to you soon.

i am wearing: shirt: h&m+diy, shorts: topshop, thigh high socks: american apparel, all rings: ebay, lipstick: rimmel/scream

sway with me

ok dolls, this is hard to watch.

me, i am damn close to an acid flashback.

you have been warned.

blame my boyfriend for this.

on the other hand its me who promenades around with m.c.eschers lifework all over the body.

anyway.

time for eye rehab.
now ease your eyes with this lil stunner babes:

thanks to maria for the hint.

love u cherry pies!

eszter

i am wearing: fake leather vest: ebay+diy, cardi: asos, dress: american apparel, leggings: american apparel, shoes: jeffrey campbell (kiddos, they are available here again), my rings: ebay, pictured ring: from here

sweet childhood

the tigers have found me

nevermind me.
you know, some people never go crazy.
me, sometimes i'll lie down behind the couch for 3 or 4 days.
just for fun.
true story.


...thats beeing said i wish my waaay better half a happy freakin bday!
i love you.honestly.daily.hard.whole.and more.

i wear: sheer white dress: american apparel, nude one shoulder dress: american apparel, trench: zara, sweats: h&m, shoesies: jeffrey campbell

challenge to the dark

dont bury me yet, i am still alive dolls.
i
just
can't
do
any
thing.
i am out of ideas and also i think i got betrayed.
big times.
and topshop is the one to blame.
did i really manage to miss the fucker above?

wherewhenhowwhy?

i know they announced them years ago, are they gone in the meantime?

i thought i would notice when it hits the stores...

confusion.
can someone enlighten me puhlease?
love you
eszter

i am wearing: cardi: etsy, dress: from the wonderful vera , rings: ebay

ps as some of you asked, my pics are all made by the main honey pie which is my boy

9 lives...minus the actual 2

i am wearing: mesh bodysuit: american apparel, skirt: h&m divided, cape: h&m, thigh high socks: american apparel, creepers: demonia/ebay.co.uk

let me be your garter

i like.

skirt:h&m divided

cause and effect

ok, we all knew i will miss a lot of shows....ok.but hey the ones i saw were pretty entertaining and creative.fun times.

and yeah of course i didnt take my cam with me.

maybe next year i will think more proper.
not.

besides this it has been a-lets simply say "strange" week, honeypies.

weird stuff happens.

excuse me when i escape to sleep now where glittery unicorns, shiny rainbows, and playing toddlers are waiting for me.

love u

eszter

i wear: cardi: asos, dress: etsy custom made, socks: h&m, shoes: noname, rings: ebay

riddle me this

ok , although i have no fuckin clue bout fashion your sister will visit vienna fashionweek next week.

what has the world become?

note to myself:

-comb your hair

-blow your nose

-wear undies

-dont drink too much

-dont talk to strangers

-and if, just say yes

love eszter

i wear: jacket+shirt: h&m, shorts: vintage levis, shoesie: demonia/ebay.co.uk

we used to be a team

ok

six hours of work
no backup
program crashed
everything is away
hard disk full
wrong version
update misses
no manual
RAM too small
hourglass
hourglass
wrong version

shitfuck
update not available
square eyes
screen is black
google
site doesnt load
nothing found
error unknown
delete
error
processor to slow
site doesnt load
shit

hourglass
hourglass
hourglass

...yeah,we used to be a team.

i wear: trench: zara, dress: vintage/ebay.com, harness: ebay.co.uk, tights: h&m, shoesies: jeff campbell, sunnies: noname